making magic

I was going to come on here a few weeks ago and give you guys a holiday gift guide. It’s the standard blogger thing to do in December and I was going to follow suit. I was scouring the internet for deals and coupons and was going to consolidate it all for you in an […]

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23 things i’ve learned in 23 years

Today I turned an underwhelming twenty-three years old. Twenty-three is the first of many years that no one is too thrilled about turning. The fizzle and pizzazz of the big milestone firsts have dwindled away. I am no longer an inexperienced driver, or a new legal adult, or a drunken stupor out of a bar, […]

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letting the fear lead

Over a year ago, I was talking to this guy, this totally and completely gorgeous guy. We had met at a party in Wilmington and exchanged numbers. He was tall, tan, very muscle-y, and had light eyes and dark hair.  Basically, if you were like “show me a picture of the hottest person you’ve ever […]

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clouds in my coffee

The other morning I was sitting at my desk dunking an Italian butter cookie into my coffee. I stared blankly into my mug as bits of cookie became coffee-logged and surrendered themselves to the pool of liquid. I sit with a mug of coffee and a cookie or piece of toast whenever I am missing […]

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to build or to damage

I was driving down the Parkway the other day, as good Boonies regularly do, for an unexpectedly long time, as inexperienced Boonies tend to do, and I started doing some serious thinking. For those of you unfamiliar with Boone or other mountain towns along the Parkway, the Blue Ridge Parkway is a single road that winds […]

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the best & all the rest

In a constant state of preparation for my first 3 days of grad school, I spent hours this week piecing myself together. I was fixated on all of the delicate, tiny, particular details of my appearance; the way my hair was going to fall, how dark my eyeshadow was going to be, how tall I’d […]

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all she is & all she is not

Analise was born 1 month and 3 days after my 4th birthday. I do not have any recollection of her as an infant so I will not type here pretending to know what it was like to bring home a newborn with Down’s syndrome or to have that newborn have open heart surgery a few […]

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things i can’t carry

About two months ago, I was talking with an old friend over drinks. He and I have been friends for 8 years so you could say he knows me fairly well. Our conversations usually take a turn for the deep so we tend to move through topics such as friends, jobs, ex’s, and disappointments pretty […]

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my eating disorder story

I want to always be honest and authentic with you guys. I want my blog to be a safe zone for myself and anyone who stumbles onto it because if it isn’t honest and safe, why would anyone want to stay? And why would I? Besides, I don’t know what it is about sharing, but […]

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do we want to be mothers or do we want to be like our mothers?

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. “This” being motherhood. As some of you may know I adopted a puppy back in May which means I have joined the club of “furmoms” or “pupmoms” or whatever you want to call it. Puppy-motherhood destroys your life in a very specific way. I do not leave […]

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